Its not nice to see it from this side. Its different when its somebody else, it feels wrong. There was so much I could have done to stop it, yet I still ended up ringing 999 in the early hours. They make it seem so serious, and when its not me I agree with them, its important and life changing when im not the one in the seat. When I am the one in the seat its silly and stupid, it makes no difference and nobody is around to stop me.